I think ultimately you were right to be cautious. In general I am very suspicious of enlightenment as something to be acquired at all costs. I like to think of the Hindu theme of the cosmic drama where the central self is playing all the parts throughout the universe, and if you're not ready to 'wake up' yet, then that's ok - you're still playing the 'hide' part of the central drama.
I think ultimately you were right to be cautious. In general I am very suspicious of enlightenment as something to be acquired at all costs. I like to think of the Hindu theme of the cosmic drama where the central self is playing all the parts throughout the universe, and if you're not ready to 'wake up' yet, then that's ok - you're still playing the 'hide' part of the central drama.
This is a comforting point of view. Sasha Chapin echoes it: https://sashachapin.substack.com/p/and-then-one-day-you-became-comfortable